R。At Home

 
Long Stay in Australia. Sometime I feel so good. Quiet....

I remember before I came to Australia, my aunt told me I have to be careful when I live in Australia. Some pople is very bad. They discriminate Asia people, I havn't believed her. I believe everyone good who live in Australia, but few weeks ago something bad on me. I first time felt to be discriminated when I was on work.
Every times I tell to myself don't fuss about them because they are younger, they didn't study too much. Everytime I tell myself to forgive them.
But...Finally I can't stand of that...so I left my job.

Someone said me was too stupid why left the job. In fact, I havn't felt regret or anything let myself to feel bad. Instead, I have felt so good since I left the job. I have a lot time to think what do I want to do and next? not just think...why the people so bad to me?! why I have to do same thing in the all day?! it isn't me...the job let me lose myself sometimes.

This few weeks I feel very comfortable and happy. But be honest ...soemtimes I feel bored.
I try to find something to full my bored time.  In the begin of long stay. I can' stand myself just to stay at home...no work..
I like work, I like thinking, I like busy in everytime....but after thinking and complain I feel poor for myself, because I don't know how to enjoy really...relax...When I figure it out, I told myself to have to learn '' How to relax in my live '' I wrote down want I want to do in this few months and how to get them? I so glad myself. I done that very well. now I ready and learn English everyday.


Next, I will find something to do for my career.
I believe that, I will find myself soon and I will aways happy. after this relax everything will change in my life.